the past few days have beeen great! (: wish i could show you photos but rosiiee hasnt sent me any yet. and charlene's too lazy to upload.

dinner with class at marina seafood was bouts of fun. still amazing how we squeezed everyone into that tiny van. good job t4! haha lots of butter, vege-ish soup, food, photos, cake! laughter and great company (: shopping with the girls/roseann was sorta fruitful. in all, got two tops, a new pencil case and a charm bracelet. more shoopping neeeded with more cash! haha. i wish someone could print some money for me.

highlights of the day! session was okay, good first try jon! (: justmyluck with denise, bel, swee, dominic, mag and alfred. had fun but i was really so so sleepy. back to school tmr! minus the studying, im looking forward to it. haha

HELLO. yay my attempt is going quite well. i went out ystd! caught another movie, john tucker must die. totaly chick flick but it was super funny. more my kind of show compared the miami vice. haha miami vice was so full of violence killing guns bombs sex. but i suppose the effects were cool. im so excited for the days to come. fixing plane plus shopping with my fellow little girl. yaay. class dinner tonight at marina. cant wait

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY PERRY! (:

OKAY THIS IS FOR THE BENEFIT OF MY FRIENDS (: (rosie in paricular cos she nags)

i shall attempt to start blogging again. because i know i dont go online much so its hard for my ij friends to know about my life. ahaha. ATTEMPT is the key word. i promise i will really try my best.

yup so today i had sea history exam. it was much better than intl so i hope i will do okay. tmr ive disgusting lit (paper one) which i sorely hate becuase of my absolute favourite teacher in the whole wide world. shes taken over cheng btw. im quite excited because tmr i get to go out! wahaha. freeedoom freedom freedom. here i come. well free until math and chi mock. exams have been okay i gues. econs were disappointing, intl hist bad, chi a little difficult, gp okay. lit paper 4 unseen was difficult. yupp. exams will be exams. i shouldnt care that that much about the results, since i often realise hey are not a true measure of your capabilities. though often in this stupid world, they are what people use to measure you.

okay. i think this is long enough. anyone who wants to talk, message me. becuase i hardly come online. LOVE ALL.

hello jesssiiieeeee :D

it's rosie here. I MANAGED TO HACK INTO YOUR ACCOUNT. (oops, sorry don't kill me. remember i love you and you love me :D) and i've reset your password. it's now the password i always use. i hope you know what it is, if not you can always message me. :)

ANYWAY! you never ever update, so i decided to drop by and add some love to your blog. it's getting super boring and i've been seeing the same entry for the past goodness know how long. haha.

I LOVE YOU.
miss you very much. since you don't update about your life, msg me too okay and tell me how things are going for you okay?

xoxo, rosie <3

tmr's my last day at ac. i've been looking forward to this for quite a while. haha but dont know why, suddenly i feel a little sad. going to miss the friends ive made and seeing the somewhat familar faces. oh well cjc here i come (:

i miss seeing the ten of us everyday in school.
i miss 4/4.
i miss chinese class people even. haha
i miss my juniors.
i miss ij.

twelve

i cant say im happy. cos im not. ytd was one big emotional rollercoaster and it was scary. everyone tells me the same thing, that god has a diff plan for me. its not sth easy to accept, i wonder why god keeps letting me fall this year. when is it my turn to jump again. i hate falling. it sucks facing all the ppl who had higher expectations of you. to tell them you got twleve, to feel like you let everyone plus yourself down. to feel bad cos you made another person feel sorry for you. i thought i was okay with it at the end of ytd but it seems like im not. i dont know what i need, maybe its time. congrats to everyone who did well. yup and thanks to dalvin for being with me ytd in the dance studio. i'll be okay in the end, i know that.

i wanna stop falling though please god?

its been forever since i updated so here it goes. yeah perry just called, which means ive to leave hse soon. nvm i'll just rush this, suddenly theres much to say.

yes so i havent been enjoying myself at ac, i miss everything that ij had. esp the catholic culture and my friends. perhaps its just me holding on to the past, the familarity and what not. i guess thats bad in a way but i hate change and i dont really like my new change. its so hard to be myself in school. so so hard. there are times i sit there and i feel like crying. its like ive to watch what i say cos ppl arnd me might not like, esp things concerning ac. like whether i like it there and what not. i feel as if i cant outright say im leaving and i hate it here. i cant say that in school and honestly, i feel like i cant even say it to my ij friends. wth. im struggling badly, there are times where i feel so alone when im surrounded by a crowd of people and the feeling absolutely sucks. there are times i come back and i talk to church friends and i just feel like crying so badly. i start to question why god put me in such a situation if he knew i wldnt like it. i wish time cld go back and just stop at sec four. i hate change. part of me blames everything on myself, i chose ac. why. my friends. perhaps god is letting me learn, learn from my mistakes. well sorry god, this learning process is a killer.

other times, i dont know whether to feel happy or sad. i come back from ac to be surrounded by people who love. my other friends from ij. CHURCH PPL. other friends. frankly i think theyre the ppl who keep me going. often i feel so bad, that everytime i talk to them. i end up complaining and all. but i want them to know that i really wanna say a big thank you. the support they have given to me all this while. like ytd, i was actually in quite a shit mood in school. seeing church ppl made me smile and laugh and become hyper. perhaps church is one place where i can truly be myself. so thanks to the ppl at church ytd. you def made a huge difference in my day. i think i was really happy happy, one of the few times since sch started.

i guess today as i recieve my olvl results, part of me is excited. ppl can call it complacent, im just happy that i'll be going on to a different phase of my life soon. that i'll be finally leaving ac. im sorry to all the ppl who like it there, i guess we're different huh. part of me is really scared, ive counted in my head the diff possible grades i can get. i want to do well, who doesnt. but yeah im trying to leave everything in god's hands and accept whatever comes my way. so to end off, um thanks ac for giving me this lesson, even tho it has been so horrible for me. and i trust that it wont get any better. but well i will learn from my mistakes. thanks god, for the beautiful ppl around me. i realise that even if you are going to let me fall, you wont let me go thru it alone. you'll send your angels to encourage and give me support. and most imptly, i know that lord, you are present in these ppl around me.

i feel like blogging but im lazy to type a long long entry so here it goes :

i want to thank god for

. church log msc yv sec3s adults catechists priests the sessions camps retreat meetings fellowship gatherings parties

. school ij the 10yrs my education the lessons the teachers mrng ld syf yeahcompetitions many projects walkathon chocomania interclass competitions the ij spirit

. friends everyone from log/church the 10 of us prisch friends classmates schoolmates cca juniors tuition friends

i want to say thank you to every single one of you. for the friendship we share, the memories i will hold close to my heart, the sharings, the little hellos when we see each other, the fun, the tears, the smiles and laughter, the suaning, the serious times, the times shopping, the times gossiping, the times just sitting around somewhere, the hugs, the words of encouragement, concern, care, love showed to me and so much much more.

i thank god and you for the gift of you in my life (:

hello! to make roseann and perry happy, ive taken the image off finally. haha i even changed the colour, its now green, i think it looks weird but who cares!

anyway yes happy new year everyone! my life is getting quite sad, im here on the comp because i cant watch tv beacuse my brothers are playing xbox. AGAIN. the whole last week. its actually quite fun to watch them play but its getting annoying cos i cant watch my tv. mm shcool starts next week. not looking forward to jc or ac, i wanan go back to secondary sch and have my holidays. really miss the sch, was really nice going back to visit the other day. if only time could stop, i dont mind being in ij for the rest of my life. sigh sigh. i dont wanna grow up.

THIS IS AN UPDATE.

yaay im back from my short impromptu trip to msia! enjoyed myself, the shopping's quite good. i bought like a lot back for myself and family la. clothes and food (: 5 shirts for myself. im very satisfied with my shopping. haha. yup had fun with sandra, nice to finally spend some time with her after so so long! aunt and family were super nice to me, haha yupp. im basically a happy girl! will go back to msia next year to shop somemore. haha

posting results are out. got what i put as first choice so im quite happy with it. mum's fine with anything, shes so sui bian sometimes that it gets annoying. oh well. its nearing christmas alr, need to start on my cards. a bit late. very late. haha ok thats all!

IM BACK (:

isnt that nice. today is the start of my free week, the week where i mainly stay at home and spend some quality time with the comp, tv and er bed? haha almost everyone's out, except youngest. simeon's away at band camp till wed. HOORAY. maybe you'll see me more online at night now. no one to fight for the comp with.

anyway olvls are over, thats old news. grad night was last thursday. it was actually quite a lot of fun, except all the drama aft grad. yupp but it was nice to spend time with friends and seeing everyone so dolled up. all the pretty girls! (: okay im running out of things to say. so byebye!

hello.this is amanda-im-hot-ang here.jessie cant be bothered to update.so im here to blog fer her.hahaha.she is being an idiot.and she's complainin tad she has a headache due to the lack of sleep.and she slept at one excuse me,i slept at 3plus 4.this is ridiculous.
jessie wants me to tell you tad she's a small tiny dinosaur.and she likes to eat grass.okay i dont know wad to sae anymore.and i want to look at my friendster.we have to spot and circle the real dino.feel free to come to my account and play tad interesting game.its very easy to spot.there would be guidelines to help you.
okay bye
amanda im-always-so-hot ang has left the building...wait...blog.

sheesh. this post is not even 1 hr later. but went to a few blogs that i havent visited in ages. and suddenly im overwhelmed with i dont know. regret sadness. i just realised how much ive been missing out on my friends' lives. not talking abt the people that i usually spend time with. but its those friends that i was once really close to. sheesh. suddenly i feel like such an ass. i've known all along that im not so close to certain ppl now and i give myself the usual excuses. youre busy, you guys are not in the same class anymore. blahblahblah. but now i really feel like ive left people behind as i went on with life and this feeeling sucks. cos i feel like ive been such a shity friend. this is not the way to end school.

IM ALIVE (:

haha i dont even know why i continue to blog here every once in a while. well well prelms are over, thats old news and of course results are out. yupp did okay la, around what i expected. now its just deciding where to go for 1st three months and studying for actual olvls. but dont wna think abt the jc thing. dont understand why on earth you have to decide now. there's still 2mths more. yupp

school's ending on wed. WOW. part of me really wants to get out, im sick of all the stupid papers and homework theyre dumping on us everyday. but then again it'll be the end of my ten years in ij. sheesh suddenly i feel so old. i dont really want to leave, going to miss the school, juniors, friends, class and even the teachers. actually i think one of the things i'll miss the most are the familar faces of those ppl i dont even know. hahaha. sounds so dumb but yeah guess im going to miss this familar environment. i havent exactly sat down and thought abt life after ij. its scary and its going to be hard. haha i can see myself crying in jc cos im er sch-sick. lol but yeah. i guess the school will always be a special part of me. so yupp (: three days more.

haha dont know what im doing online. the comp just seemed so attractice when i got home. tralala 4 papers and 1 prac to go. history tmr, i shld be studying. but heck later. mmn listening to all brother's songs, ive fallen in love with vesuvius and tequila! super nice, plus im sitting here laughing at tequila, cos ri band sounds so dead when they shout it. hahahaa. okay random. i must mug. mug mug. history i must.